Archive for December, 2008


Adulthood !

When you are on the wrong side of Twenty-five, you tend to think about a lot of things which, uptil now, were irrelevant. For instance, where the hell am I and where am I heading? Is this it? Is it going to get any better than this?.. and so on. Life was so simple back then, when all we worried about was whether we would have power-cuts on a saturday lest we miss our Video game time on the good-ol’ Nintendo, 8-bits of pure and childish ecstasy, or when the 3rd term exams were getting over and the Christmas holidays start! Those were the days which we would never live again, except in memories. 

As one ages along the years, priorities change and compromising starts. In childhood, we either get what we want, or we don’t. When we’re adults, we can get what we want, as long as we want it bad enough. As kids, events were the most important part of our lives. The  birthdays, the picnics, the vacations and the dreaded start-of-school day and exam-day, although the Result-day would always matter for the rest of our lives. We would celebrate a result, good or bad, by going to the famous Queen’s Ice cream parlor for a treat, whereas now, a good result would probably land you up spending a small fortune for a trip to the local bar with friends. 

As adults, more than events, we learn the importance of people and appreciate them. And people are so much more complicated than events. We learn to compromise in arguments to reach a neutral point, so that we may still have each other, cos’ everyone’s afraid of being alone. Being an adult is sometimes so lonely, and sometimes so intrusive in both the extremes.

When we were in 2nd yr, we had a resolution postered on our wall. It read: 

We Will Join The Gym:

1. To get a body

2. To get a girl

3. To get laid (In small print)

That was all we wanted back then. Now, as we got older and grew apart, nothing really mattered. 

I guess with age comes wisdom, and that’s scary. I used to think age was just a number, and you are only as young as you think you are, but now I’m not so sure. All i care about now are the people who mattered. I’ve been out of Mizoram for the past 13 years, only spending a month or so back home when I get vacations, and now I realised that it’s taken a toll on me, for better or for worse, who knows. I’ve lost touch with relatives whom I used to know so well growing up. Names are easily forgotten with time, faces take a bit longer, and you feel like a stranger in your own home. And it just keeps getting worse.

I’ve lost near and dear ones while away, and it pains me that I will never see their faces again. I try hard to recollect the last strands of memories I’ve had with them, but it’s not going to be enough, ever. I lost my Grampa the day I was to leave for home, I felt so helpless and  afraid, afraid because I know that this was not the end. He was critical, no doubt, but all I wanted was to see him one last time before he parted from this world onto the next. Life sucks sometimes. But in the darkness, I discovered something new and different when I reached home.

Being away from each other for so long, it was one of the few times our little group of friends all made it for the holidays. We were all the same, yet different in our own ways. We had grown up and matured, we had seen and experienced the world and observed it from our own perspectives. Our discussions were different, our personal values had changed. It was one of the best Holidays I’ve had for a really long time, and it was fun.

I really can’t reach a conclusion to this post, but to sum it up, I guess with adulthood comes a great power of independence, and with great power comes great reponsibility !

Happy Holidays !


Are we all Racists?

I thought about this the other day, while having nothing to do, as usual. Aren’t we all racists ? Can we truly be comfortable around people from different races, cultures, religions, origins, etc etc without a single iota of apprehension? Why, when put together in a group, would we slowly drift towards our own, rather than just blend in? And do we view those, who do blend in, with a certain degree of alertness?

Us Mizos, say that we are discriminated against when we move outside the state, that non-NE indians ridicule us and sometimes make life a bit more challenging. But when I go back home, isn’t that what we do to non-Mizos? We may argue that, No, we treat them better, we have good non-mizo friends inside Mizoram, but I’m sure we all have good friends outside the state as well. The point which i’m trying to make here is “We may think we are better off, but that’s exactly what makes us racists!

“Racism, by its simplest definition, is the belief that race is the primary determinant of human traits and capacities and that racial differences produce an inherent superiority of a particular race. People with racist beliefs might hate certain groups of people according to their racial groups.(Wikipedia)

In Mizoram, when an unfamiliar name comes up during any conversation, the usual and normally accepted reaction is “Vai maw?!”, more out of distaste, rather than surprise. We pride ourselves in being an open society, reflecting the best of the western culture, when in reality, we dont exactly come with open arms to embrace anyone beyond the border. True, we are hospitable to guests, and thats our culture and Im proud of it too, but we ought to be more approachable by others outside our community. The world is being seperated on grounds of religion, culture, race, sexuality, etc and it will happen to be so. Amidst the chaos, we can choose to be what we are. Its alright being a racist, we can’t help it, but above all, let’s embrace humanity and the power of Will to be united, as a state, as a country, as a continent and most importantly, as people of this world.


Entropy and Evolution !

A rock will fall if you lift it up and then let go.  Hot frying pans cool down when taken off the stove.  Iron rusts (oxidizes) in the air.  Air in a high-pressure tire shoots out from even a small hole in its side to the lower pressure atmosphere.  Ice cubes melt in a warm room. 

In each of those processes, energy of some kind is changing from being localized (“concentrated” in the rock or the pan, etc.) to becoming more spread out.  This is entropy, and the law of entropy, in simple terms, is that:

Energy spontaneously disperses from being localized to becoming spread out if it is not hindered from doing so.

Similarly, we,  as humans always feel need to break out, to expand and to flow beyond the boundaries encompassing us. We can never live in Peace because the universe itself is against that notion. We hope for peace and oneness in the world, but that can never happen, and thats the law of nature. The spontaneous (the unaided or undirected) tendency of matter is always towards greater disorder — not towards greater order and complexity as evolution would teach. This tendency towards disorder that exists in all matter can be temporarily overcome only if there exists some energy converting and directing mechanism to direct, develop, and maintain order.

Ultimately, however, scientists concede that the law of entropy (the process of progessive energy decay and disorder) will conquer the entire universe and the universe, if left to itself, will end in total chaos (the opposite direction of evolution!).

The universe, therefore, cannot be eternal and requires a beginning. Since energy cannot come into existence from nothing by any natural process, the beginning of the universe must have required a Supernatural origin!



Wanna build a PC?

I got this website from a friend of mine, and its worth checking out. You’ve probably seen the pimped-up PC’s with colorful neon lights and stuff, with massive cooling devices and over the top designs. Well, here’s your chance to use your imagination and build one for yourself. These guys have got world class products (the price may suggest the same) but the price is pretty reasonable if you’re a computer gaming afficianado like myself, cos’ if you’re in India, chances are you’ll never get DESI chassis like the ones from Thermaltake, or motherboards on offer from the website. 

I once asked our local computer shop (“COMPUCITI” to be exact) about the NVidia SLI-supported motherboards, and he didn’t even know what the hell it was, although he said it would be available the next month when the new stocks come in.. yeah right.. typical indian businessman..

Anyways.. heres the website and it’s based in Mumbai. Being from Pune, i’ll have to take a trip to mumbai to build my PC next year cos’ im kinda on a low budget right now, with Xmas coming up and me having to return back home.. etc etc…

Heres the link…… the company is based in Mumbai, though they can ship anywhere in India for a charge..


My First Post

I had always wanted to start a blog when it first came out, but i never had the time or the material to kick-start it with, what with college and everything. Lately i’ve been inspired once again with renewed energy, and now here it is. I guess with maturity comes the need to express oneself and the thirst for creativity in a fast-paced, monotonous corporate kingdom. 

Our lives, as we know it, is spiralling towards the inevitable death, but what we do in between defines who we are. And i just want to put my experiences, feelings, thoughts and everything else online so that at least, someone, somewhere out there in the vast virtual world would relate to it, and utter at least a “Hmm…” if not “Amen to that!”

Having said that… I now proclaim my blog.. open to public !!


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